Antonia is an intuitive healer, energy worker and facilitator of transformational journeys.
Creating sacred space, she guides you with exceptional safety and security throughout your paradigm shifts.
She holds you with love, compassion, grace and skill in becoming fully realized in your Divine expression, supporting you in living through your heart’s intuition, and guideing you towards actualizing your highest potential. Through loving presence, curiosity, compassion and surrender she creates the spaciousness to integrate fragments of the soul, and impact your current reality to reclaim your wholeness creating new relationships with self & all.
Antonia has been practicing, and facilitating deep meditation journeys for 22 years, using various modalities. She has traveled and worked internationally, working in apprenticeship with Mexican and American Shamans, Elders and teachers, and evolution in bridging modern western depth psychology medicine with alchemical integration methods of the ancients.
My Personal Healing Story
As a curious student of life I am truly inspired by the incredible people I work with and all of the richness, intimacy beauty and depth available in present moment connection.
My path of remembrance began with my own healing journey.....
From an early age, my curiosity, creativity and inspiration has guided me. When I was a kid, i'd be tracking the room, and feeling the sensitivities of others. I was tracking who had big voices, who was unnoticed. I felt drawn to inclusivity. I had an innate orientation and soft spot fo the fringes. As a teen growing up in Queens, NY, kissena park, and flushing cemetery with flurishing fauna, manicured gardens filled with Bright Azaeleas in the spring were my refuge. Spending lots of time sitting there, I was fascinated by the revelations, wisdom, teachings and patterns in nature as directly reflected in forms of life. Those trees, plants, & souls, made me feel connected to something bigger.
Nature helped me to understand myself, and the bigger web of inter-relationality through the metaphors both secret and obvious she revealed to me through her essence.
Big changes happened for me in 2011.
I had a successful business, I was an educator in my field (in the beauty/fashion world), I helped in managing other peoples businesses, I had a wonderful home, an active social life.... But inside I felt lost, exhausted, and disconnected.
I was distracting myself with my over commitments at work and in relationships, with consumerism.....
My divorce woke me up to the maya and my part I was playing in the maya. The stories and roles I had played into. in the spirit of fear, of unworthiness, looping in dysfunctional family patterning. During that time destructive behavior was my spirit's attempt to bring my attention toward the wounds I carried within myself.
I had been unconsciously creating circumstances and experiences to see my own hurts being reflected at me. I had felt my gift, was in my "strength" was in my ability to "handle it, hold it", to see potential and the best in everyone and everything, people pleasing, and stuffing my own feelings until they'd explode.
I was exhausted from all the self denial. To "deal" I found myself on a cocktail of inappropriately and irresponsibly prescribed pharma drugs ( by a psychiatrist, a doctor, whom I could text for scripts).
I felt deeply inside, how wrong, and how dangerous this was. How terrible I felt. This was a huge illumination of what our culture is feeding us. It's soul genocide.
I needed to make changes. I began working with a spiritual healer/elder and meditation teacher, Anne in NYC to unpack what I was experiencing.
Blessedly, fire guided me. I Prayed to it, with respect, care, honest. I released my"self" into it as I listened and learned. The fire gave me courage and strength to follow the flame in my heart.
I attended a mystery school Las Piramedes del KA, and then decided right after to do a Darkness retreat/vision quest in Lago Atilitan, Guatemala. I had 3 kinds of parasites, ecoli, guardia, and brutal gut infections that had been progressing over that last year that had began in Mexico. In that Dark room I had a death experience in that Dark room. Full death and complete surrender into a tunnel of light that drew and carried my soul closer to divinity grace and pure love. I left my body behind. I was met with a face, I heard an indescribable sound. Nothing I can describe other than a cosmic reverberation, the sound of creation. There was the sound of a voice ancient chanting beyond that, and a cunning vision I wouldn't understand until a year later. Spirit was planting seeds in my consciousness. It was the path I was being guided toward.
The teachings of these infections and bugs were about boundaries and looking for things from the outside to satiate some longing for love and self worth and validation.
I began prioritizing and focusing with all of my being on my own spiritual practices and traditional Healing. It was in Mexico, I found my home. I connected with incredible community. I had never experienced anything like it.
I steeped in my souls uncoverings and the unknown. I Went to many retreats, and workshops, vipassana, detoxed, cleansed my gut, began working with plant medicines again, committed to my healing, I kept exploring, delving deeply into my own self study.
Synchronistically, I met met my teachers in Mexico, Diamond and River of the Living Freedom Program. I'm forever grateful for the relationships/partnerships, mentors, shamans, healers and elders I work with which lead me to deeper love and magic beyond my knowing.
I peeled the layers through hypnosis, regressions and meditation sessions and ceremony.
My understandings about my cellular memories, and the impact of collective trauma, and the unconscious became deeper and more profound and right there for me, clearly to work with.
Throughout my travels, and now, having both assisted and facilitated 100's of ceremonies, I witnessed the profoundly powerful breakthrough experiences people were having.
This initial exposure and experience helped me understand my purpose and the responsibility I have in learning more about the nature of trauma, how to help process/sequence/ and integrate trauma, which is the root of what causes us, as a humanity, to do the things that hurt and unconsciously help at the same time.
Being born is traumatic. We as a humanity are enduring our own traumas. Trauma with a big T and trauma with a little t. Epigenetics, Collective Trauma, and these societal structures we have been born into create structures in consciousness that are showing up in the here and now.
This became a priority. I've since devoted my life to studying, experientially training, understanding, practicing and implementing somatic experiencing, Hakomi, mindfulness, along with full sensory experiencing to access the multidimensional realms we operate from, and heal at a core level.
I continue to live in curiosity and find so much satisfaction and joy in all the mysteries and surprises life has in store. Being in service fills my heart and soul.
My Mission and love in life, are to support people to realize their essential nature, be who they are, know their gifts, live authentically, and lead an undefended life of joy and fulfillment.
I am here to share more art, create more safe and sacred space for intimacy, relationships, connection, co- creation, community, and to communicate the way most of us humans hadn't been taught to.
To open spaces for new healing and integration experiences in one on one and group dynamics.
I continue my learnings and discoveries through experiences with nature teachers, combined with intuitive resonance, acquired tools & practices.
My mission and purpose is in helping people observe, access, and traverse present moment experience to learn from what's available in BEing - to love deeper, and deeper, and deeper.
Certified Professional Coach (CFT) Accredited International Coaching Federation & Accredited Coach Training Program (ACTP), Leadership That Works. May 2015-May, 2016
Internal Family Systems 2016
Living Freedom 2014
EFT - Emotional Freedom Technique 2011
Hatha Yoga 200hr. 2016
Certified Clinical Hypnotist Through the CCH, NHG, Through The Center for Integrative Hypnosis
Creative Expressive Movement Embodiment
Level 2 Reiki Practitioner and Body Worker
Hakomi Mindful Somatic Psychotherapy 2yrTraining 2017-2019
Currently Enrolled in *Somatic ExperiencingTM* Through the Trauma Institute
Enlightened Feminine Leadership Training with Mukara Meredith
Founder and Chief facilitator at The Rainbow Bridges School of Integrative Studies. An intentional learning community /cohort of facilitators and consciousness raising evolutionaries.